I know many who are enduring emotional triggers from close family. For me, awareness is my strength. I am aware that they are NOT ME. I am aware that their desires, needs and wants are NOT MINE. I am aware of how they use their emotions to ‘bring me’ to their own pain, or to keep me contained within the old energies they hold unto. It is always your fault, and it will never be enough. Through this awareness I choose to see them not ‘wounded’ or ‘messed up’~ but instead to …see them as a mentor for myself. Through my experiences with each family member I have taken witness of my likes and dislikes, what feels right for me, and what does not. I have experienced a pattern passed down from generation~ that I myself choose to break. I owe nothing to anyone except myself~ and I choose what role they ‘play’ and whether the role played continues~ with honor for who they ‘ARE’ and who I ‘AM’. Loving each one with compassion~ telling my Programmed Child (who is afraid of abandonment) that she is ‘safe and loved’ in MY ARMS~ not anyone else’s~ assists my journey alongside of those I CHOOSE (WE CHOOSE) to have experiences with. Take a look at each member and ask yourself~ what am I to feel here? What am I to understand? Who am I through this experience? Where is my strength? My value and worth? This relationship is for YOU to ‘see’, ‘feel’ and take notice of ‘who’ you are…not always to take notice of who they are. It’s all for you~it always is……
In Love’s Enfoldment~ Amy